Just stuff...

New Journal

2003-10-24T16:04:42Z

New User name is eyesofages.

Toodles!

Oh shh

2003-07-26T22:28:01Z

I am not missing, I am perfectly found and safe and all that stuff, so stop worrying your pretty little heads about me, there is no emergency so :P. I just moved down to the states is all and am very happy where I am. And because everyone online loves good rumors and stuff by now everyone knows more about where I am and what I'm doing than I probably do, and yes my rents know exactly where I am as well. But no worries. You can always write me at my excite account. darkegothique@excite.com

Ciao babes!

Female Faerie Quiz

2003-06-23T04:22:27Z

Congratulations, you're a Drac, a seductive fae.
What kind of female faerie are you?
Take the female faerie quizby Paradox.

Random Survey Thingy...

2003-06-23T03:57:57Z

[Spell your name backwards]: airotciV

[Where do you live?]: 'Winterpeg' AKA Winnipeg

[Describe yourself in three words]: Pyscho Crazy Pixie

[Who is your worst enemy?]: Myself

[If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?]: Leopard

[What is the latest you've ever stayed up?]: Umm...stayed up? Does not sleeping at all for days count?

[Ever been to Belgium?]: Nope but close a few years back when I was on my Europe Galavanting Trip.

[What's your favorite coin?]: LOONIE!!

DESCRIBE YOUR
[Wallet]: Black leather with a chain and chunky silver detailing. A fuzzy chick wallet? I dun think so!

[Brush]: Which one out the millions I use? LOL

[Toothbrush]: One of those Crest Pro Spin brush thingies...purple of course...has to match the room *rolls eyes* Yeah right...

[Jewelry worn daily]: Three rings...all silver with gems, one tigers eye, one garnet and one turqoise.

[Pillow cover]: On which of my nine pillows are we talking about? My body pillow is leopard print...the others are purple/cream/black.

[blanket]: It's the middle of bloody summer...a sheet maybe?

[coffee cup]: Mmmm... Coffee.... I'll be back in a minute....

[shades]:

[underwear]: Nope, we're not going there besides the fact I only wear thongs and damnit I went there...ugh...

[shoes]: Which of a million pairs? My leather knee high platforms? My black sandals? My lace up knee highs? My slip on runners? My CAT sandals? Get more specific eesh!

[handbag]: Depends on the day...sometimes a back pack other days just a simple white bag. And no not a grocery bag, I do have some class ya know!

[favorite top]: Black capped sleeve t-shirt with irridescent flames silk screened on the bottom.

[favorite pants]: My back capris with the chain belt.

[cologne/perfume]: Satsuma body mist by The BodyShop

[CD in stereo]: Bif Naked

[tattoos/piercing]: Two holes in each ear, tribal lion tattoo on my lower back that I designed myself. I want more.

[wearing]: My fav capris and my american cowgirl tanktop

[hair]: Right now? Bleached, zig-zag part...with red highlights...normally? my natural red.

[make-up]: Not too much...just enough of what I need to get by

[in your mouth]: Umm......I plead the fifth.....LMAO

[in your head]: Too much to explain as usual...

[wishing]: One thing in particular which is going to happen soon...so no need to be wishing anymore : )

[after this]: I'm going for a smoke and something to eat.

[talking to]: No one! Having a conversation with many

[eating]: Nothing right now...*stomach grumbles*

[do you like candles]: Let's see does having like 54 in my room mean I like them?

[do you like hot wax]: Umm...once more I plead the fifth...LMAO

As the world of Winnipeg and my nutso mind turns...LOL

2003-06-23T03:22:25Z

Well put aside the fact I had my finger chomped on and shredded by a cat at work because some idiot there doesn't know how to restrain a cat properly...or really at all and I was microchipping it...my day was actually really awesome! I'm all bouncy...albeit it may be from the beer I had at the block party I just came from too...but nah. I am just in a really good mood for the first time in a long while, which is really great. It's been too long since I've been happy, and I have a feeling and I really hope it's only going to get better. Things change suddenly sometimes and its not always a bad thing.

...

2003-06-22T06:59:20Z

You know...everyone says not to listen to what people say or think...to be your own person and not worry about what opinions others have of you right? I always thought so...but when you keep hearing the same negative comments from people who apparantly love you and care for you, it means something else. What they're saying must be true right? I think so...and because of that...I must be a pretty shitty person....I can't stand myself right now...

Ugh...

2003-06-21T06:26:38Z

What a week...not that anything was too terribly bad but still. It was just one of those weeks. The weekend could have rocked save that I got food poisoning and am sick as a dog right now, and home alone with only the company of a dog. So yay. I am so excited but feeling so shitty it kinda just comes out as blah today. Oh well that just means next week will be much much better. But then again it is another whole long week so that's not so good either I guess. But oh well. Shit happens and then you die. So yay once more.

My name means....

2003-06-19T04:47:35Z

sathende
Magic Number	16
Job	Despot
Personality	Rainy Day
Temperament	Pussy Cat
Sexual	Whatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To Win	The Respect Of My Colleagues
Me - In A Word	Chinny
Colour
Brought to you by MemeJack

Well well well...

2003-06-19T03:53:09Z

I don't even know where to start. Where does minding your own buisness not make sense to some people. And since when did 'you can do this one particular thing' become 'do whatever the hell you want it will all be ok with me even though you know you shouldn't without talking to me first?' I am just really confused today. I suppose the saying is true...people are dumb...a person (or two in this case) are abosolute morons!!! Alrright so maybe I'm being generous towards them. I can't stand it when people choose to interfere in your personal affairs when you have told them it's none of their buisness. Helping is one thing, but if the person doesn't want the help? Leave them fucking be already! And don't try to form a fucking crusade for crying out loud! Granted I know some people need help, crave it, hell even over-exaggerate to get attention but when someone doesn't want your help? Leave them alone and bugger off! It isn't enough I have to work all day dealing with cruel moronic people to have to come home and deal with them online? I guess that's my choice but having to put up I don't have to do at all, and I'm not going to anymore.

Too....hot...

2003-06-17T00:43:26Z

Did I mention I don't deal with hot weather well? I hate being too warm...I mean when its freezing you can just keep bundling up and it's allright...but when its 30+ C? There's only so much you can take off and still remain decent in public. LOL. But then again it is legal here for me to walk around topless...hmm....*the hamster starts running again* Just kidding. You wish. But it's too hot to think deep thoughts, so this is going to be short again.

Tired still...and stiff...

2003-06-16T02:05:58Z

Allright I'm tired, overheated because of this bloody heat wave we're having today, stiif from riding and training all day and I just wanna curl up and die. So :P

Kindgomalility

2003-06-15T02:44:21Z

our distinct personality, The White Knight, might be found in most of the thriving kingdoms of the time. Don Quixote was a White Knight as was Joan of Arc, the Lone Ranger and Crusader Rabbit. As a White Knight you expect nothing in return for your good deeds. You are one of the true "Givers" of the world. You are the anonymous philanthropist who shares your wealth, your time and your life with others. To give, is its own reward and as a White Knight you seek no other. On the positive side you are merciful, sympathetic, helpful, giving and heroic. On the negative side you may be impulsively decisive, sentimental and misdirected. Interestingly, your preference is just as applicable in today's corporate kingdoms.

If I lived in medieval times this supposed to be what I would have been...kinda neat.

http://www.cmi-lmi.com/kingdom.html

One more day....

2003-06-14T02:55:52Z

Only one more friggin day until I get a day off...then back on for another six in a row...did I mention I hate this month? I didn't? Oh well...I hate June...but today is Friday the 13th so maybe I'll get struck by lightning or spontaneously combust or something...it could happen. *nods lots*

Blah...

2003-06-13T03:56:33Z

Blah blah di blippity blah...I just thought I would open this up to write something about today while I'm downloading yahoo but my mind just drew a complete blank. Well allright, partial blank. I know exactly what I'm thinking about but I don't feel like posting it right now. Someone out there knows exactly what I'm thinking about, and why I'm in such a smiley bouncy mood. But yah...that's it that's all for now.

Hopes and Dreams and all that other crap...

2003-06-12T03:51:59Z

Well well...I am in yet another one of my famous 'moods' tonight. Not to say I'm not in a good one, but there is as always this underlying current where I just feel uneasy. Not necessarily in a bad way, but I really do think I think too much. I wish there was just a way to shut off my brain and have some peace and quiet where I don't have to be evaluating every little thing in my life to the uberest. For instance...my 'nephew' was born on the 9th...I saw him the night he was born and haven't been since. Not that I haven't been asked to come over...three/four times a day. I honestly think I'm petrified of babies...well not of them but the thought of them maybe? Not that I don't want to have them..well I don't know about that yet. Besides the fact my friends who had him are kinda wishy washy friends...most of the time I think I'm just the girl with the car. *shrugs* But I knew that long ago, so it doesn't really bother me. I guess I've been staying away because no matter how stupid they were for having Logan because well....for lots of different reasons anyway, could I be jealous? I mean here I am...not necessarily single but alone anyway...working, saving for my car, dying to move out of here...doing all the things I'm supposed to and there they are not working, on social assistance, living with her parents with no intention of ever moving out, but they have this happy little family now. I think I'm just screwed in the head honestly. I mean when I was little...by the time I was 25 I was going be married or if not engaged...live in a house with lots of animals of course and happy...well I'm just over three years from that and here I am. Granted I made a lot of bad choices in the recent past...going out to Alberta probably screwed me over for a while...but still...not anywhere I wanted to be at this stage. I know I know...it rarely works out that it happens when you think it will...but I can only imagine these thoughts are going to get worse. I mean is something wrong with me? That I can't get where I wanted to be yet? Or is fate just screwing with me? I dunno.

Yes another quiz...

2003-06-11T20:49:21Z

Romance Style
You are a Practical Jane/Joe
You don’t want a lot of money or hoopla surrounding your love – materialism isn’t good for the soul. But that doesn’t mean you don’t want to share, and be shown, signs of affection. Simple, down-to-earth and genuine expressions are the ways to melt your heart – and how you show your love in return.

Sexual Style
You are a Adventurous
Wow! A description of your sex life might make even Dr. Patti blush. The word ‘no’ is not in your vocabulary when it comes to sex with a trusted partner, nor is ‘I’ve got a headache.’ Your partner is either a lucky person...or very tired.

Communication Style
You are a Gifted Communicator
You and your significant other are equal partners in your relationship, thanks to excellent communication skills. You openly express your feelings without negativity or accusations. You listen intently to your partner’s issues, ideas and suggestions. Not only are you able to skilfully articulate your feelings and ideas, you’re also able to understand your partner.

Astrological Assessment
You are a Leo
In love relationships, Leo tops the charts in almost every area, from devotion to romance. The great strength of the Leo-born is their creativity and generosity with others. Their creative and theatrical natures make them among the most flamboyant characters of the Zodiac.

HeeHee!

2003-06-11T05:10:51Z

I had to post another one...more quiz results on how dateable I am LOL

Damn, J-Lo! You are...
79%

dateable! Attractive and confident, witty and charming, a healthy ambrosia-based diet... you're wanted in the 48 contiguous states, you slayer. Call me. Seduce me. Make me a man (or woman.) Not only do you know how to turn a guy's (or girl's) engines on, but you also know how to oil, lube and rotate it. You put the "elation" back into "relationship," and the "night" back into "one-night stand."

http://test3.thespark.com/datetest/

Quiz results

2003-06-11T04:56:13Z

I found this nifty little quiz tonight...

http://www.jimidog.com/dpa/

Kinda cool...these were my results on my dating patterns analyzer...

"Qualities you should look for in your dates
Here's the complete list of qualities that are positively correlated with your happiness.

Qualities to seek in your dates:

Cultured 0.86
Warm 0.81
Committed 0.79
Educated 0.74
Listens 0.71
Intelligent 0.54
Flexible 0.50
Height 0.45
Wealthy 0.41
Attractive 0.36
Leader 0.30
Age Difference 0.25
Sensual 0.23
Sociable 0.21
Weight 0.20
Ambitious 0.16
Spiritual 0.06
Interesting 0.00

Hungover...

2003-06-11T02:58:59Z

Not much to say...today bit the big one...hurts to type...

Amazing and sad day...

2003-06-10T05:25:47Z

Well I woke up this morning dreading today and it ended up rather great matter of fact. Got up early...went to work (had to work an earlier shift) worked for nine hours. Rushed from work to the airport to pick up Salem and my boyz. We trucked on down to the cemetary for the funeral....man I miss Rob...I knew he was so sick for so long, but especially having all the guys here? It's like this huge thing is missing, and I know it is. We all feel it. After we stayed there for a bit we hit the bar...Rob always told us he didn't want us being sad and depressed when he finally passed away...that we should go have a drink for him. Rob was always great like that. Really great. So we did..and a dozen for ourselves...

Then I got a call from my best chica Carla, who went into the hospital to have her baby today. So I got to hold my "nephew" Logan...he was a big baby, but still sooo small they forced me to hold him, I thought I would break him. It's not like I haven't held kids before...but not ones only hours old...was nice. So it kinda made my day better...ended on a very good note. Still tired and slightly buzzed and still sad but happy for Jay and Carla. So I guess I kinda evened out.

Strange thoughts...

2003-06-09T03:28:37Z

I've heard them call it a panic attack. They say it's probably just a chemical imbalance in my brain. No problem, this little pill will take care of it. But sometimes I think they're wrong...it's not an attack, or an imbalance or even a medical problem at all. It's just a time when my mind, body and spirit opens up, and I sense to much of the world around me.

I never know when it will start. Most often it comes at dusk, during that transitional time when it's not daytime, but not quite night, but it does come at other times...it could be as I wake in the morning, during the day at work or even in the middle of the night. But, regardless of when, it always begins the same.

The backs of my legs get cold and begin to tingle and it climbs slowly along the skin of my body. I usually end up wearing two sets of clothes just to stay warm enough. And, even though my skin is freezing on the outside, on the inside I'm buring up like a fire raging though my body. My adrenaline flows like I'm a running a marathon, and my thoughts race at lightening speed through my head.

It's not as if I'm just in a state of dread, or fear, as you might see someone having a true panic attack. It feels that if every sensation of every entity on this earth enters my body at the same time. Like a drug entering my system...BAM! It's just there and it's intense. It's nothing but absolute, unadulterated, raw emotion permeating through me. Excitement, terror, anger, anxiety, bliss, grief, disappointment, pain elation....anything one could name, I feel it. Almost to the point that I believe my mind, and/or body is about to explode, and then it start to subside. Eventually, the last wave of feelings fade, and I come back to reality either crying or in a daze of sorts. Time has past, but I have no recollection of what's transpired in the world around me.

It's truly an exhilarating experience, but try explaining that to the "normal" world. And maybe I am losing my mind...or perhaps already crazy... but, really, who's to say?

...

2003-06-07T19:04:12Z

I don't even want to talk about today. Don't ask me how my day was or I will tell you right where to go and how fast to get there.

T.G.I.F!!!!!!!

2003-06-07T02:40:21Z

It's about damn time!! What a week...so friggin tired its unbelievable but the one good thing about working where I do no matter how insane it is at work, you always walk away feeling good about what you do. Of course I have to go into work again tomorrow morning for a safety course. Ugh. Oh well. Sunday is only one day away so thank god. Of course I have to go riding then and work with some horses. So no weekend for me. *Cries* And here I was all excited. Damnit.

Craziness...

2003-06-06T04:19:47Z

I hate getting sick...all achy and sniffly and tired and cranky and bitchy and headachy and back achy and unable to get comfortable and feeling cold all the time. Oh did I mention I also complain a lot when i'm getting sick? Oh ya figured that one out already did you? Strange...LOL

Long week...

2003-06-05T06:24:31Z

Allright this is getting ridiculous! When is Friday coming? I was only supposed to be working 30 hours this week at max and because of this free cat giveaway thing I am now working 45! Not that I'm really complaining, money is great but still...it's exhausting! Maybe I'm just bitchy lately, who knows. I hope I'm not because I hate anyone being bitchy all the time so if I was being that way it would be bad and I would have to shoot myself. Yup yup. Bang bang goes the gun and oh look I missed, guess you'll just all have to put up with me being strange for a bit longer. Too bad so sad. I have some poetry running around in my head. If you want to check it out its in the poet's corner of MR.

http://www.myrealms.net

But here's one I just finished in the mean time.

Fuck my friends and fuck my foes,

Fuck those skanks, wretches, and hoes,

Who made the rules, who said we can't live,

Who wouldn't give their lives, and who would off and take them,

No one is safe, no one is fair,

no one is glorious as which that is not there,

What am I?, What are you?,

Who are the painless choosen few,

Who really cares, you or I?,

Who really cares wether we live or die?!?

I am alone, now and forever,

Not able to love or care, No! not never.

I have been bitchy like I said. LOL